this feeling.

of wanting to sabotage my life.  to up root myself.  to move to something new.  to start clean.  it excites me.  makes me giddy.  i squeal like a little girl.  i want a change.  i want to explore my life.  live out my possibilities.  

i must prioritize.  i must plan.  i must create structure.  i've excepted that this year is going to not be a waste, but a time for building a better future.  it's a positive thing.  a plus.

there are things i would like to have.  feeling i would like to live.  moments i would like to experience.

i want my life back.  but i want it at it's full potential.

signed,

me